Playlists

I decided I needed to make some new playlists. Some of you may or may not know that my iPod was recently jacked so I was trying to make an audio CD. My goal was to make a "Best of Mike Doughty" album and have it fit onto 1 Album. Ha Good luck there. I got 32 songs into it and thought... I may need to trim this back a little bit.

Just for my sake here is the playlist: (This isn't really part of the blog I just added it for dramatic effect)

1. $300 - Soul Coughing - El Oso
2. 4 out of 5 - Soul Coughing - Irresistible Bliss
3. 40 grand in the hole - Mike Dought y- Rockity Roll
4. All the Dirt -Mike Doughty - Skittish
5. American Car - Mike Doughty - Haughty Melodic
6. Down on the river by the Sugar plant - Mike Doughty - Rockity Roll
7. Fully Retractable - Soul Coughing - El Oso
8. Get Along - Mike Doughty - Rockity Roll
9. Grey Ghost - Mike Doughty - Haughty Melodic
10. Houston - Soul Coughing - El Oso
11. I failed to use it - Mike Doughty - Rockity Roll
12. I hear the bells - Mike Doughty - Haughty Melodic
13. I miss the girl - Soul Coughing - El Oso
14. Looking at the world from the bottom of a well - Mike Doughty - Haughty Melodic
15. Madeline & Nine - Mike Doughty - Haughty Melodic
16. Misinformed - Soul Coughing - El Oso
17. Real Love / It's only Life - Mike Doughty - Skittish
18. Rising Sign - Mike Doughty - Skittish
19. Sleepless - Soul Coughing - Irresistible Bliss
20. So Far I Have Not Found A Science - Soul Coughing - El Oso
21. Soft Serve - Soul Coughing - Irresistible Bliss
22. Ways + Means - Mike Doughty - Rockity Roll
23. Where have you Gone? - Mike Doughty - Skittish


Now I had to cut a lot to make that fit and it was not very easy.

Moving on.

My sister graduated today. I knew she would do it but she seemed to have some doubters. Maybe I just give her too much credit. I have to tell you seeing her in that cap and gown made me think back to my graduation and what was going through my mind. What would change? Where was I going? Did I really have to get my shit together now? It was very strange being at a graduation 8 years after my own. She looked like a woman though I will say that. My little sister is not so little anymore it's not such an easy thing to take. Maybe I should have set a better example... or maybe I should have set a worse example to show her what not to do I don't' know and who really does? What will I do in the case of my own son? How will I keep him out of the influence and put him on a path to success?........

I am curious as to how many readers actually made it this far. I know I have a tendency to ramble and my mind wanders. Its just the grey ghost that I call home.

Pasta for 1. It sounds so wrong but I need to fake the will to get along. I have made my happy home on the hill. It just feels so empty 90% of the time. Just me no dog no wife mostly no kids just me and my pasta for 1. Only problem is the Recipe always calls for 4 and that is something that has fucked with my head now for awhile. (NOTE: I Left this in the blog because it says a lot about the way I was feeling when I originally wrote this but this part has changed DRAMATICALLY)

I've got the will to drive myself sleepless. I like to make lists. Everything I do I could make a list for. As long as I type it and not write it out by hand I know what I am talking about. Someone recently looked at one of my lists that was hand written and asked, "What is 1 Don Andrew?" It actually said, "iPod adaptor" Nice. Guess I got scratched by a chicken in my youth. This actually happend on Court's wedding day so lets talk about that in the next chapter.....

Court AKA DOxOption AKA ORT, This Guy... can be described in 2 and only 2 words. "YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH BUDDY!!!!!!!!" I used to hang with this kid way back when. In fact me Court and Nick were inseparable and an easier time in life. We would hang out at the Larson's house listening to DOWNSET and Minor Threat and get all riled up. On one fatefully day Nick took it a bit far and decided Court should be caned. The mark exits to this day. I have so many memories of these kids from Ski-Blitz to grafiti to amateur computer crimes. I taught Court how to type for Christ's sake and even introduced him to his first BBS. DOx For life son. I am glad you did it. Sara is a good woman for putting up with your shit. Court and Sara what a cute couple I have just one more story to tell about these 2 fools. One night (Halloween 06) I accompanied them to a Halloween party of which I didn't know a single person there except for those 2. They went as Mario and Princess I went as a Crayon it was adorable. After a long night of drinking Court couldn't stand anymore and wanted to fight everyone (nothing unusual so far) I decided it would be best if I drove the big ass Nissan home since Court and Sara were both covering 1 eye to walk. Unfortunately for me they decided to fight and argue the entire way home. You see Sara wanted to go to a bar (Even know it was way past last call) and Court wanted to go home. I was driving and wanted to go home so I won. About half way home just as I was about to yell "SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!" *poof* instant silence and then... Court began to snore I looked in the back seat to say "Hey Sara look Court fought with you until he passed out" but the funny thing was She was passed out and drooling herself. The cutest thing ever the couple had fought themselves to sleep. They were made for each other.

I don't mind worry following me like a dinosaur. I have come to realize that I am going to have to live my life fighting with my own mind and a fair amount of worry and stress over nothing. I am my own worst enemy. What do I stress the worst? What I mean to all of you. I worry so much that I am sitting here in this big house by myself and nobody is thinking of me or wondering what I am doing. "Lonely, and the only way to beat it is to bat it down" The truth is I have a lot of Great people in my life. I think about most of you non-stop and what you have meant to my life and my journey. There is no way I could go without a single one of you. I do not want to De-cathect. I need this. What happened to the steps and the list we were getting so far until my mind got involved. I would like to float again.

My younger brother finally got that DUI that most of you were expecting. He hit a parked semi and the semi moved at least 4 feet. The driver reported "no survivors" The ambulance cut my brother out of the car with the Jaws of life and took him to the hospital, broken bones, stitches and a bloody t-shirt. He is ok but sadly it doesn't even phase him. I fear I will lose him soon. He's not struck dumb he's just dumb that's all. When do you give up hope on family? You really never can. I worry about both of my brothers and my sister and I wonder about my mother that worries about us all. The odds of survival for any of us are slim. So far we are 4 for 4 though. Knock Knock Wood.


Well that's it kids. That's all I have to say. A whole lot of nothing I hope I have killed your time effectively. When you are down and out just remember these words, "It's only money. You can always make more tomorrow"
<3 Dave